Venus1948

Hi, Gentle Women! I committed myself to a 10 # weight loss by Easter.  Where can I go to find out how many calories I need to cut, and how much exercise to increase?  Thanks!

My grandbaby arrived at 2:47 a.m., and is named Amelia Jane.   She is perfect in everyway.  Once I was perfect, too. Perfect size/perfect nutritional impulses.  In my defense, I did pass up the chocolate covered twinkie at the chocolatier on Tuesday: settled for one perfect chocolate covered cherrie instead.  It’s easier to make small shifts in behavior instead of noble huge ones.  20 years ago I went sugar free and caffiene free (c0ld turkey) for a whole year.  I lost weight in a truly scarey way. It seemed that I was not only losing weight, but losing part of my essential self.  I feel more present and substantial when I am heavier–which is no longer a healthy option.  So for today I am gradually introducing more fruits and vegetables: cooking ahead for the week so that I always have nutritious and attractive choices for work meals.  One day at a time……venus 1948 

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It’s Wednesday, Feb. 13, 10:58 pm.  I’m at work,waiting for the phone to ring and tell me I have another grandbaby.  Perhaps there are new beginnings for both of us tonight:  she being born. Me being born again.  I have struggled with my weight for 15 years.  It was this time of year when I was diagnosed with a rare brain tumor.  Only 2% get this particular tumor, and for once I was “special”.  I was in the 2%.  Subsequently,  surgery left me partially deaf and with a bit of a balance disorder.  So perhaps it is also fitting to make a renewed commitment to my life at the anniversary of a time when I almost died.  I began gaining weight with the ensuing depression and difficulty exercising.  As I was beginning to get a handle on that adventure, I was diagnosed with probable ovarian cancer and had a hysterectomy (more weight), and than two knee surgeries (even more).  So here I am at the midpoint between Winter and Spring (some call it Imbolc), and I am at last thinking freely about the future.  There is a goddess by the name of Venus who is about Life Force, and to her I dedicate this blog and my renewed commitment to live in a healthy/happy way.  The last few years have been mostly about survival, and I have done a lot of emotional eating.  Starting today, I am willing to at least THINK about doing things differently/living differently.  And to these lofty thoughts, I say:  Blessed Be!  Venus1948